It seems innocent enough on the surface, but let’s take a closer look. Imagine you’re going through a rough time. You feel that downward swing in motion and you are overwhelmed. You’re doing your best to take care of yourself and your responsibilities, but that leaves little energy for much else. Underneath it all, you just want to be left alone, right? You want time alone to relax and recharge. Now imagine you’ve just finished explaining this to a close friend or family member.
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There was a time in my life when I had a breakdown. I sought help in caring for my daughter before things got too bad. But after that it was a continuous downward spiral until I wasn’t me anymore. I had run away, to live in the back of my mind, while my life went on around me. I didn’t like what I saw through my eyes, but no matter how much I screamed inside, I couldn’t stop it.
I had no control.
#TheUnseen is when mental and/or emotional fatigue leads to withdrawing, and depressed thought loops. It is when "I'm tired or "I don't feel good" mean so much more. It is when you can't even handle being around the people you love. It is when you wish you could confide in someone, but you can't let anyone see that part of you. It is when people think you're okay because you can laugh and smile. It is when you know the good feeling behind that laugh or smile won't last, no matter how hard you try to hold on to it.
Inspired to Stabilize
By: Kryss Jobes
So, this year I want to make changes in how I live my life. For the past few years, I have told myself I will do this, but it never lasts. It is all too easy to get distracted and put off important tasks, or to miss one day and let yourself become utterly discouraged. Once this happens, it can be nearly impossible to recover.
Living with mental illness is hard enough without outside interference, but no one can avoid the outside interference of everyday life. Whether you work full time, go to school, have hectic family lives, or any combination of these things; they all add more weight to what you’re dealing with already when you wake up.
I’m 30 years old, and I go by the name of Kryss. I was born in Texas and raised mostly by my grandmother, but other family members helped as well. I have a significant other and a daughter, and I feel like the world’s worst mother at times. I also have three cats that are both therapeutic and counterproductive at the same time. I love my family, they are extremely important to me even though they make things more difficult sometimes.