I hate myself right now.
I hate myself every time I’m depressed. I just started a new medication after gaining 9 pounds in a month on the previous med I tried, so I’m depressed about that on top of having general depression. Since I’m starting over again on a new medication, I have to wait out the 4-6 weeks it can take for the medication’s full effect. At least I’m able to get some thoughts down today. All I’ve wanted to is sit around or lie around and exist. I don’t even want to exist. I don’t want to die, either, if that makes sense.