Something I am Proud Of:
I thought if people knew how I felt, I would lose everything. As a kid I experienced trauma, abuse and struggled with addiction. At 14 I was admitted for psychiatric care after a suicide attempt. After that I felt like I needed to pretend everything was ok. I dove in to school and didn’t get more help for almost 20 years. I was ashamed and blamed myself. I didn’t know how bad things were, but because of what had happened I was able to see the darkness when it returned and reached out. I was diagnosed a year ago. After years and years of suffering in silence I am finally able to live out loud.