I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder six years ago. I’ve made a full recovery, but it hasn’t all been peaceful. I still have my ups and downs. Case in point, the week before last I had a panic attack before work. I had been so busy taking care of family members that I had not been asking for help. I had been putting my needs dead last. After my panic attack, I quit my job. Smooth.
My bosses told me that they didn’t want me to quit. They told me to come to them when something like that happened and that they would pray with me. I was told that I was part of their family and that they cared. Can you believe that I almost walked away from something so wonderful because of the fact that I was uncomfortable? Like I said, smooth.
I wanted to tell you this for three different reasons. One, life is full of setbacks. Don’t panic because you aren’t super human. Two, it’s OK to ask for help. If you don’t take care of yourself, how are you going to take care of those that you love? Third, don’t run from something wonderful because you feel like you failed. I need to always remember that there are people that care about me and that it’s OK to say, “I’m getting worn out. I need some backup.”
Please, learn from my mistake. Although my story has a very happy ending, it might not have. I’ve discussed with my husband and parents about speaking up for myself more. So, if you’re at a place in your life where you may need some help, trust me when I say that you’re not weak for it. You’re human, there’s only so much pressure that you can take. Please, take care and nurture yourself. Having a panic attack is not worth it.
See you soon!